This was written some time earlier (today) or (yesterday--it's 2:47 am, July 3rd, and I wrote this about 4 pm, July 2nd)

I have beautiful dogs. One is lying beside the couch and the other is about to jump up on the couch. He's looking me, like "is it ok if I come up?"

Before I got my "walking papers" from my former school district, there was a man sitting on the corner of a major intersection, who had a sign that said, "Vietnam Vet, anything will help" and he had a dog. I went over to Walmart and got a package of dog food and went to Arby's and got a $10 or $20 gift card for him. I handed it to him on through the car window. He said, "Thank you, Ma'm." The next day I got my non-renewal notice. (My position was eliminated. They didn't need LD Tutors anymore)

I wondered if I'd ever be in his shape, and I hoped not. I wonder if I'm going to be sitting on the corner and have a sign that says, "Out of work special education teacher." I'd hate to do that.

How do you become more than where you live and more than you what have and more than you are at the moment? How? How does one reach over and beyond where they are? I have known for awhile I have a story to tell, and it needs to be told, now, in some way. I have to get out of this and I have to get out there.

But, how?