Me, entertainment, going out with someone and my mother

I know nothing about film, acting, or the entertainment industry except that people take pictures of you all the time, but I am interested in the film industry. I am interested. When I was in 6th grade I wanted to be an actress but I let that go.

I know nothing about it but I'm interested.

I don't think I want to be an actress but I'd like to learn about the film process.

I'd also like to go out with someone. I would love to be "taken away," taken out, told not to think about stress or life or anything for a night. I'd like to be Cinderella for a night. I would love for that to happen.

If Matthew Perry could take me out, I would be elated. He is so handsome and talented. As I said, I love him in comedy but he needs to play my uncle in this movie that has to be made.

There is someone out there for me, and it's like that song on the Ally McBeal soundtrack, "By Heart," I haven't met him but I'll know him by heart.

Oh--one of those songs from the Alley McBeal soundtrack is going to be in the movie, if it could be arranged.

I have had it all in mind, for a long time, and I hope someone important thinks what I've had in mind is good.

I need someone to visit Franklin and I need to tell them about everything that used to be--the way things were--how my mother loved pepper and loved mustard on her hamburgers, and how she loved to talk on the phone and doodle and trace things while talking on the phone. I want people to know what she was like---how she shyed up at family get togethers with my dad's family, how she loved green vegetables and fried potatoes and wilted lettuce. She loved vineger, too.

She was a sweet mother. She was a beautifully sweet mother. She lived to pick me up from school every day. She put me swimming lessons at the Y. One summer, after swimming lessons in the morning, we would always stop at a place called Ponderosa where they had a morning breakfast buffet and I loved their bisquets and gravy.

She was awesome. She lost her job unfairly but she was awesome. She was so, so beautifully awesome.

She tried to stand up for herself in every day life if she felt she was being "cheated" in some way. She was good about that.

I wish and hope that the Video I made of her shows what I've said. I am sorry there wasn't a video on us daily. She wrote a journal about what we did every day and all I have to do is pull out a page and I can read about what we did.

She was awesome.

And I want to go out with someone. I deserve it. I deserve a lot.

Cindy