Job Alert

Hum, I wish I had better news, but I didn't get the job I was waiting to hear about---That position was filled.

My uncle has said that sometimes you can't do the job you want to do. I was trying to prove him wrong and have been trying to prove him wrong for years. I hope I still get the chance, with my project, though he hasn't said I won't make it to that dream being realized. He's said a lot of things but he hasn't neighsayed that.

I have been turned down about 10 times in my whole time of trying to do this, and I have kept going back for more--"Take another little piece of my heart, now baby. Break it, Break another little piece of my heart, my heart..."

Is God trying to tell me something?

Am I going to be on Ellen, Oprah, talking to people about a movie, publishing? Is something even better than education on the horizon?

Could that be why? Surely I'm not being left out in the desert for nothing. Surely not. Surely there is a good plan.

Oh God, let there be a good plan. Don't let me fall.

How is it that you can want to do something more than anything else in the world and not be allowed to do it? How is that? How is it that this can happen and is happening? How? Someone, tell me how.