I could have screamed

Well, that title may sound more exciting than this may be. Tonight, while waiting for food to come up at the restaurant window, waiting to serve hot food, I could have screamed. I could have just opened my mouth and screamed. I would have gotten some attention then, but not the kind I want.

I was so frustrated. So, so frustrated.

I wanted to just let it all out.

There has to be a guy out there that will "do it" for me. There has to be guy out there. Ellen DeGeneres is a matchmaker. Hopefully I have been waiting for the very right one for a very long time. I always liked Matthew Perry. John Stamos is totally awesome. George Clooney may need a hometown girl. Would love to go out with someone eligible and just show me a great time. I need that.

I need something to make up for everything--everything, as much as possible.

I hope someone reads this.

I think I did something wrong and it's bothering me. I'm not going to say what I think I did wrong but I think I did something wrong and there's something I need to do that is bothering me also.

I make so much less money at this restaurant than I did in education.

And, I haven't heard from anyone in the educational field that I've been waiting on.

Did I ever say that I interviewed with like every district in my area and was turned down?

Yeah, every district that I interviewed with, turned me down.

I don't understand anything.

Cindy