At this very moment

At this very moment, I'd like to be working on my book, but I don't want to do a whole lot more to it until I meet with the people who may be helping me work on it/edit/all that good stuff.

I have to get this done. It just has to be done.

It's very difficult when you are just you and you don't know anyone, anywhere in the area in which you are pursuing a goal. It is so very difficult and frustrating, when you know you have a gem in your hands but no way to put into a setting. It's my ultimate life goal to get over this threshold, to break beyond this boundary.

I live in a beautiful town. When you look at the horizon from certain spots, it is absolutely glorious. I hope important people come to my town to see where my mother lived, worked and thrived at one time. People can say, "yeah, like that would happen." It is irritating to me when people are determined to not extend their minds. I hope that the movie could be filmed in the town.

I have the perfect part for Tom Hanks, if I've not said it already, and I think I have. "Mrs. Taylor, why did you have___________ re-take that test?" "Mrs. Taylor, you need to ________." "Mrs. Taylor, it's not my responsibility that you ___________. I expect to see improvement."

If a quality movie were made, I believe it could win an Academy Award. It would be my mother's just reward and when people accept and they make the speech, they could say, "And this goes to Bernice Boggs Taylor, who deserved more than she got. She deserved a retirement with honors, and this is for her."

I have seen that and dreamed about it for years. Years, years, years, years.

If I've not said it already---Cameron Mathison ("Josh") I don't know who would play "Leslie" and I'm afraid the age difference would be too great, but it would be Hollywood. Matthew Perry--my uncle. Of course, Tom Hanks---mean assist. principal. Charlie Sheen--nice assist. Superintendent. Richard Gere, either my mom's former principal who wrote her a beautiful recommendation but was on the school board when she was booted out, he later became a guidance counselor, or he could be the principal that couldn't stop what was happening. Julia Roberts as the woman that took over my mother's position and said things about her in the lawsuit trial. And last but not at all least, in fact a heavy hitter---George Clooney as the mean Superintendent.

This had an indelible effect upon me. I watched this beautiful woman thrive, be a teacher, have students joyfully talk to her, and then it come to where she was hiding. Hiding out in the town where she lived, to feel pain when students asked her if she was still teaching. I lived through that with her, and she didn't deserve it. Not at all. She was a beautiful, smart, intelligent (synonym for smart, I know), vibrant, little woman. How in the world it happened, I WILL NEVER KNOW.

I would love for Oprah to do some investigative work (although I think Lisa Ling does that now) and see how many former students say she was one of the best teachers they ever had and the positive things they say about her. I challenge her or anyone to do that.

Please, Oprah, Ellen, someone, Tom Hanks, George Clooney, SOMEONE!!!! help me do this. Help. I need help. I need this to be done. Am I getting through to anyone?

Cindy