Waking up this morning

I'm "temping" at an office today. I was there a couple weeks ago. It's a nice place.

I'm waiting.

As I was waking up, I was thinking about a friend I haven't seen in about 7 years. It's not like we live on opposite sides of the country. We live in the general same area. I talked to her in February and her phone number has been changed. When I talked to her in February she suggested we go out to dinner some time. That's hard to do when someone changes their phone number.

I also woke up thinking, "I'm not where so many people are---"I woke up alone (except for the wonderful dogs), and I don't have that "uh hah," that I got it all together, feeling. I don't have it, not at all.

Maybe I'm not sounding positive enough. Maybe I'm not sounding happy enough. I just love when people can be happy when they are going through crap. I just love it.

I'm waiting to see how everything I've been through is for some good. I'm not sure if I'll see it. I know that while things were going well, I didn't care about that dream I'm trying to make more than a dream. I know that even if I do get a job I will be trying to make that dream more than a dream.