County Fairs

I really like County Fairs, at least the one I've been going to, for the bathroom remodeling company. I really enjoy it, but I wonder about the animals.

I kept hearing over a loud speaker something about recipes and cooking and went into the barn where I was hearing about the recipes and the cooking and noticed a really foul stench. There were goats and lambs everywhere, and I assumed it was something to do with lamb recipes.

I should become a vegetarian.

I petted a goat and a lamb.

I looked at the rabbits and thought about a kid 'I worked with now, well over a year ago, and how he raised rabbits to take to fairs. He loved talking about his rabbits. He and his mom gave me a small teddy bear on the last day of school that year and a nice card.

I'm going to an insurance agency tomorrow and talk about getting back into insurance. How I hate that it appears and seems I must leave the educational field. How it hurts. But, I have to go on and do whatever will offer me a future, which education does not seem to do. I have been turned down and away so many times, I'm done. I'm done. I can't do this anymore.

I saw a message on a church sign that said, "PUSH---Pray Until Something Happens," and that's what I'm going to try to do--even though this mysterious time between August of last year and May of this year made me question a lot in spirituality, I'm going to pray, until something happens. I told God I didn't understand what happened in that time, but I'm going to pray, again, until something happens.

Cindy