Josh and our conversations

Josh and I had some incredible conversations---incredible. They're in the book. Everything that ever happened between us is in the book. But one, stands out in my mind and has for a very long time. It is etched in my mind.

I think I referred to it, once, when I said he said my mom, "must have fought hard." That was the most special conversation I've ever had with a man. It was just him, me and the lights overhead. He listened in a way no man has ever, ever listened. Some people might say the memory got better with time, but it was all that and more. He asked me if I had a boyfriend, and I tried to sound important and talked about "David" being the love of my life but having a girlfriend. I asked him if he'd take back the chick that left him if he had the chance. He asked me if I was going to Kentucky for Thanksgiving, in an inquisitive way---it was mid-November. I thought I might get an invitation to go to his place. "Are you going to Kentucky for Thanksgiving?"

I always thought of the song "Making Love Out of Nothing At All," by Air Supply, when I thought about him being married to anyone besides me. I've always thought he's had to be making love out of nothing at all. I wrote him poetry, and he "got me." He "got me."

He so "got me."

I loved him, and I just have to say it. I have to say it now---I loved him.

Cindy